SELF-DOUBT SLOW TANGO

Its Tuesday early evening. It's light outside and a glass of wine is calling but I'm not answering - sadly. I've got to put some more hours into my novel. My plan is to launch WOTW in October, if all goes well. Trouble is I'm not sure about the wording on the back cover now, my head is full of doubts about it. Is it punchy enough? Would a youngster pick it up based on the wording?

I wonder if these doubts will ever stop? Maybe if they did then that's when I should stop writing. Self-doubt drives me, makes me want to complete this work as best I can, but though it drives me it slows me down too. It seems to be a case of three steps forward, two steps back like an old-fashioned tango.

Tomorrow, after work, I'm contacting Neislen the ISBN agency . I can't load the application form. I can't attach the pages they request which are mandatory for the application to be sent in.  It's frustrating not being around in the day.  This time last year I thought I'd be pottering around, writing novels, doing a bit of gardening and some charity work.

Who's idea was it to retire, then start a new full-time job three days later? Oh yes - mine.

I can't do anything about it now tonight,  so I might as well get back to the novel and getting that moving forward. Up to Chapter 15 now.  Took a while because I ended up changing two chapters into three, maybe four when I've finished. Also took advice about not making endings all cosy-like. Instead the ending calls you to read on.

This wording is bugging me though. Ran it past my son, he likes the original version. Maybe a merging of the two? Perhaps there's room for both?